Monday, July 05, 2010

I Can't Believe She's Gone

How is it that when I look at my almost 15 year old daughter, who in every sense, looks to be a young woman,  all I see is my baby?
The one I rocked to sleep?
The one I read "I Love You This Much" over and over again too?

Yesterday my daughter flew across the country.
She took two planes, and one renovated school bus.
I have never met the people I am placing her care in.
They were waiting for her with sky blue T-shirts on; waving a sign.

Her sister cried when it was time for her to go.
How is it,  we will be only four?
Three weeks seems like an eternity.
But I am certain we will survive.
I am certain she will thrive.

I want her to have a wonderful, exciting time.
There will be good days and bad days.
For her and for me.
The tears in her eyes when she left...
will return.
But they will be for her new friends
as she steps on the plane to come back home to us.


I am counting the days.
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  1. AnonymousJuly 05, 2010

    You will (survive) *hug*
    ~Debbie via Facebook

  2. AnonymousJuly 05, 2010

    Trust will survive.....but be prepared, this scenario will continue to repeat itself.......doesn't matter how "Grown up" one's children are..... tears are always shed in the heart when they leave....
    ~Maura via Facebook

  3. AnonymousJuly 05, 2010

    Last summer Heather went to England for 5 weeks...I thought I would not make it but I will too...just remind yourself what a wonderful experience she will have and it seems to make it better..
    ~Jemma via Facebook

  4. oh wow. I can't imagine watching my eldest (now 8) walk out of my house and away from me, but I know - KNOW! - the days are not far off. This was beautiful in its simplicity, Dana, and just broke my heart in a really good way.

    She will LOVE you for the gift of broader horizons.

  5. How exciting for her. So thankful for texting!!!!
    Take care!

  6. Exciting for her, hard for you. Been there done that, will be doing it again, I'm sure. I did the same when my oldest was 16 and I'm sure my youngest will soon be wanting to do that. Now my oldest is telling me she is staying in the city she attended bible school in and becoming a permanent resident of another province. Whaaa! Thank God for texting!

  7. Dana, now it's my turn to tell you that your daughter will thank you for allowing her to spread her wings. You will both survive and will have grown for the separation.

    That comes from me, the mother of three adventuresome children, who love to travel. Currently, my second oldest is interning in Argentina and will be there until late October. Her last time in Argentina spanned six months.

    I survived that and I'll survive this. I'm not saying it's easy, but... technology (we use skype) makes it more bearable.

    Yet, I understand the depths of the ache in your heart.

  8. Oh. Ouch.
    I hope for her safe return to you!!
    I hope the days fly by too!!

  9. Aww, she'll have a great time & you will both survive!! But man I'm sitting her tearing up thinking one day (before I know it) my daughter will be old enough to leave like this. And man, I'm going to be one hot mess when she does. *sigh* being a Mom isn't easy even if we get these awesome kids outta the deal, huh?

  10. Awww, I know it is difficult to let go no matter how old they are. They will forever be our babies.

  11. GULP! I am few years behind you but when I read this kind of stuff if makes me want to encourage my 12 year old to play with her Barbies some more. Good luck! Keep us posted

  12. What an adventure that provokes so many emotions all at once! Best wishes to both of you!

  13. A beautiful girl. The three weeks will fly by! and crawl at the same time I'm sure.

  14. Such a hard thing to do. Oh, but the blessings you will reap from it all.

    Holding my granddaughter is just like holding her mama all over again and my heart just about bursts everytime.

  15. I will keep her (And you) in my prayers. I cannot imagine how hard it will be for you, but what an experience for her!!!


  16. Oh, I know how you feel, and it is never easy. No matter hold old they are, or how far they go.

    Praying for God to watch over her. This was be a life-changing experience for sure.

    Can't wait to hear how it went.

    Praying for you too mom♥

  17. I know how you feel. My girl is the same age, seems like yesterday I was cuddling her and singing with her and now is 6 ft tall and a young lady. Sigh..... She went to camp for the first time and didn't call the whole week! Made me worry but in the end I realized I have taught her well and need to trust that she will make good choices. Hard to let go...

  18. Awwww.. that is so sweet, Parents can really be emotional when it comes to things like this, I remember the "Lizzie McGuire Movie" with this post. :) I hope she had a great time.

  19. I remember being so excited when I went away from home...can't imagine what my parents were thinking or going through but now I can. I have a hard time when my kids go on sleepovers. Hugs to you and hopefully you're able to keep in touch via the www.

  20. AnonymousJuly 07, 2010

    my kids are going to miss her like crazy too!!! let us know the date she is back so the kids can come give her a hug : )
    Leanne~via Facebook

  21. AnonymousJuly 07, 2010

    Last summer Heather went to England for 5 weeks...I thought I would not make it but I will too...just remind yourself what a wonderful experience she will have and it seems to make it better..
    Jemma~via Facebook

  22. I've been gone the last few days, so I just caught up.
    This is hard, isn't it? But deep down inside us mothers, we really wouldn't want it any other way.
    It's just buried under the layers of care and years of attentive love.
    Before you know it, she'll be home and be regaling you with all her adventures.
    Hope you can sleep while she's gone.

  23. oh. This pulls at my heart. My two year old is already too grown up, and I can TOTALLY see his face as a baby face.

  24. Where is she off too?
    I felt the heart-ache for her in this post... I hope the days pass quickly.

  25. An immersion program at the University Of Quebec. She is having a great time.

  26. How hard! I don't look forward to the day I have to let me little ones go like that. But I know the day WILL come.


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