I Wasn't A Good Parent Today

I wasn't a good parent today.
I called Eldest a
"Princess"
And not in an endearing way.

She's on the go day and night.
A job plus homework
Midnight fire's burning too bright.

Why do I focus then
on the messy room?
The laundry piled up
When she'll be gone so soon?

I never thought I'd forget what
it was like.
To be worried about tomorrow's test
And if my hair looked just right.

Have I really gotten old?
When did it happen?
Please God don't let me be
The mom who no one listens to
Because it's obvious she just doesn't see.

I worry I coddle.
I still make her lunch.
She did do her laundry
A pact with her dad is my hunch.

Why didn't I say thank you?
Instead of responding to stress and huff.
Words leave lasting marks...
Sorry's often aren't enough.

So Eldest
I want you to know.
I don't think you are a "Princess"
Because there are things you've always shown:

You try your hardest.
You really care.
And when you're stressed you need assurance
From a mother who is fair.

"Parent In Training," a title that fits like a glove.
If you'd give me the chance for a do over I want to try again.

But this time  ...With Love.

xoxo,

Mom