Thursday, October 04, 2012

I Wasn't A Good Parent Today

I wasn't a good parent today.
I called Eldest a
And not in an endearing way.

She's on the go day and night.
A job plus homework
Midnight fire's burning too bright.

Why do I focus then
on the messy room?
The laundry piled up
When she'll be gone so soon?

I never thought I'd forget what
it was like.
To be worried about tomorrow's test
And if my hair looked just right.

Have I really gotten old?
When did it happen?
Please God don't let me be
The mom who no one listens to
Because it's obvious she just doesn't see.

I worry I coddle.
I still make her lunch.
She did do her laundry
A pact with her dad is my hunch.

Why didn't I say thank you?
Instead of responding to stress and huff.
Words leave lasting marks...
Sorry's often aren't enough.

So Eldest
I want you to know.
I don't think you are a "Princess"
Because there are things you've always shown:

You try your hardest.
You really care.
And when you're stressed you need assurance
From a mother who is fair.

"Parent In Training," a title that fits like a glove.
If you'd give me the chance for a do over I want to try again.

But this time  ...With Love.



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  1. OH how know what you mean!! Thank you for this beautiful poem!!!

  2. Oh my heart, my friend. Just the thought that I'm still going to suck at this for about another 15 years is really bringing me down. ;) xoxo

  3. Oh that eldest child has a lot to forgive, huh?!?!

  4. Yeah, this whole parenting thing is so hard! But it speaks volumes that you are the kind of parent to apologize. You're doing something right.

  5. Oh do you know what I"D GIVE for an apology when I was her age?????

  6. Little teary here. You're such a good mom Dana...and so wise. We can all use this little reminder.

  7. Ok, crying here 'cause I'm in the same parent boat.

  8. Oh Dana.

    I wish I could give you a hug.

    This is absolutely touching.

    And so true.

    Where are the darned rule books when you need them anyway.

    You're doing great.

    Be kind to yourself...motherhood is NOT for sissies.

  9. Dana, I just love this, and I love your heart. I've had these days, with Boyd, and I just want to start over for the day. You are a beautiful, kind and caring mama....and this post proves that even more. hugs!


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